Update.
I kind of want to completely redo this blog. Create a new account, make it more running and less recovery focused, and make it a lot more personal. I really think it would be best for me overall. There are times when i really don’t want to post a lot of personal stuff on here in fear that someone i know will find it, but honestly, who freaking cares. I might just start giving out the link to my old personal blog and transform that instead. But i only have like 50 followers on there and about 1,000 on here.. whatever. If you want the link to my other blog, message me. I’ll figure something out.
dear child, you can’t be over 10 years old, get off that exercise bike please please pleeeeeeease
Feelin like such a rebel right now.
I have study hall last period and our instructor told us that if we wanted to leave, it was fine by him as long as we didn’t get caught. So i left, with about 10 other people in my class. The only problem is that we literally ran out the door as one of the gym teachers saw us (i think) and if we get caught, we could possibly all get detentions for next year.. which would kill my rep. But all high schoolers do this! I shouldn’t feel bad!
Plus, i’m at the park right now sitting on a swing and about to go for a walk before i can go home to get my running clothes. So there’s a plus :)
I need to tell someone in real life about this.
I just had an anxiety attack over a pancake.
A pancake.
No one in my real life knows about all of the struggles i’ve had with eating. Sure people suspected it when i lost a ton of weight, but now that i’m “normal” looking and eat a “normal” amount, no one seems to notice. I’m worse now than i was then though.
I don’t know how or who to tell but all i know is that i have to and that is terrifying.
AHHHHHHH!
the grocery store right next to my house now has alfalfa sprouts, zucchini, peanut butter granola, and an abundance of clif bars! if it ever gets some avocado i could die a happy girl.
